Mommy Guilt

Mommy guilt.


It's something I'm sure most Mom's experience on a daily basis. I know that I do.
Today's doses is extra strong though. W, my 18 month old son, has a higher then normal lead level. It was high at his 1 year check up so we retested at his 18 month check up. It had stayed the same. When the nurse called to tell me that my heart dropped. Even though we tried to increase his veggies, calcium and all the other things the paper said helped lower it hadn't changed. The one good thing though is it hadn't gone up either.

  There are so many questions that are raised: such as where is the lead coming from? In all likelihood it's mostly likely from our house. The very thing that we bought to shelter him and keep him safe could be making him sick. His levels aren't high enough to make him sick yet but I can't help but worry. I can't imagine a future this bright little boy may struggle to learn someday because of a house we bought. I hope it never comes to that. I know that we will be doing everything we can to prevent the lead level from rising and hopefully it will decrease. All I can do now is give all my worries over to God and follow the doctor's orders.



Sorry for all the rambling but I had to get all these emotions out.


Caroline

Food that just taste better with a side of memories.

Is there one food that you could make but is just wouldn't be the same? For my family that's strawberry shortcake. We're all capable of making it but we don't. We have Mom make it. I think part of the reason we all enjoy it so much is because of the love that goes into it. The stories and the history that are shared while mixing the batter. The laughter and memories of whipping cream that just wouldn't set up. Puddin and sauce is another one of those foods for me. I've only had it twice in my life but I still have vivid memories of it. My Grandmother made it for the first time while I was at her house because I was sick. She shared the story of how her Mom used to make it for her but only when they were sick. We laughed over the recipe card that would be incomplete to most. There were very few measurements written down. Phrases like "till it looks right" were a big part of it. The second time I had it was when my Mom made it for me right after I had my daughter and she came to visit. I think puddin and sauce and strawberry shortcake are made that much sweeter by the memories we associate with them. 


What are some of the foods that just aren't the same for you? 

Angels Watching Over Us

      Baby B and I were in a bad wreck yesterday. We're both okay, no injuries at all, but my truck is totaled. Looking at the truck after we got out and looking back at the pictures I have no clue how we got out unharmed. I truly believe we had a whole group of Angels watching over us yesterday. All I could think about as the truck was spinning then rolling was please don't let Lbe hurt. Thankfully she wasn't but I was truly terrified. The few seconds it took me to get out of my seat belt and to crawl into the back felt like forever. Once I got her out I just held her close. Thankfully Mr. B was a few minutes behind us so he didn't see it happen. I guess the reason I'm writing this post is to just help process it all. I was really calm right after it happened. I never really lost it. Oh I cried several times don't get me wrong but I wasn't hysterical. It was funny the guy who watched it all happen and called 911 for us told Mr. B that I was calmer then he was.

    Like my Dad said "L sure is going to have quite a story to tell. She was born at home then was in an accident at 13 months and survived without a scratch." I truly think that God has something special planned for my sweet baby girl.

          Well bye for now everyone. Hope all is well in your worlds. Be sure to say a little prayer of thanks for everything you have.

Mrs. B

Answered Prayers

   Hey everyone! Lots of things are changing in our house. God answered some big prayers for us the past month. Mr. B will be medically retired from the MC, which is a huge relief. We have a EAS date now. We aren't sharing it just yet because we still have some things to figure out before we tell everyone. It's a huge relief for me because we have a date to countdown to now. It feels more real to me now. I wish is was sooner for Mr. B's sake because the month before it gets here will be really stressful for him. Please continue to pray for us and all of those deployed.

     Mr. B has been promoted! That was a huge answered prayer for me. With his promotion comes new duties though, one of which was attending a funeral. Mr. B really struggles with the fact that he can't be over there serving with his friends and that he feels like he isn't a Marine because of it. I know there is a reason God kept him over here instead and gave him the dystonia. God has a plan and it's just our job to follow along and trust him even when we wonder why He gave us certain challenges.

   BB is doing great! So much personality in such a small person. She's sitting up, crawling, pulling up and cutting teeth like a pro. She constantly amazes me with the new things she learns. Time is flying by way too fast. She's already almost 9 months old. I've already started planning her first birthday party.

   I'm doing okay, just trying to plan things. Lots of changes coming up for us and I'm trying to pray my way through them. I hope we're making the right decisions for our little family. I'm going to miss our church and military "family" we've made out here. I know we'll keep in contact through email and hopefully the occasional trip out here.

  That's all I can think of to say for now. I'll really work on updating more often.

Hope all is well with you and your family!

Update

Hello everyone!

I've been really terrible about keeping up with this since I had BB. Everything is going well with our little family. BB is almost six months old! Time is flying by way to fast for this Momma's comfort. She is such a mess! Lots of personality in a small package. She's working on trying to crawl and sit up. She loves to play with her toys and inch around on the floor; she's got the whole going backwards thing down. BB is a HUGE Daddy's girl; as soon as she sees him she is all smiles. If you reach for her she'll reach back and her Daddy has already taught her to shake hands. She loves to try and eat her Momma's face. She is teething unfortunately, we're hoping they get in fast. She has the sweetest smile and laugh.

Mr. B is doing well, just working all the time. His unit that he is with is deployed, but he is still stateside due to his medical condition. Please keep them in your prayers. His med board has finally been sent off to Washington, D.C. so now it is just a waiting game. This whole thing has really taught me patience which I could always use some more of. The timeline they gave us is 3 months then 4-6 weeks till our EAS date( the date when he will be separated from the Corps). So around July we should be moving back to our favorite place. We could always use some prayers about all that's going on.

We've been blessed with some really wonderful people out here and I'll hate to leave them but Texas will always be our home. I'm much too close to my family to be truly happy being so far away. Our military family is wonderful and I'm so thankful for things like Facebook so we can stay in contact with them even after we move. Speaking of our military family I'll be making some care packages again soon if anyone would like to donate to them. A good friend of ours is over there and I want to make sure he gets some reminders of home.

I think that is everything that I need to update y'all on. Hope all is well in your little slice of cyberspace.

Family Photos

We finally got to do family photos. I'm so totally in love with this photo!! My sweet baby girl and her Daddy. Had to share it with all of y'all!

Big Changes!

Hello everyone! Sorry it's been a while since I've updated, lots has been going on. BB made her grand entrance into this world on October 3rd. She was in quite a hurry to get so she was born at home and her Daddy delivered her. She is perfect healthy and a wonderful baby. I can't believe how much she's changed already in this past month.

There are also some other big changes in the air for our family. Mr. B was sent to the med board earlier this week. This will determine if he stays in the Marine Corps or if he will be medically discharged. This is such a huge part of our lives. We really hope he will get out because we want to go back home. This process can take anywhere from 3-12 months. We can use lots of prayers during this time. We know it's in God's hands and we just have to turn things over to him and know that whatever happens will be for the best.

Well I have to get of her for now. Hope all is well with you!